But remember how I said I ate a lot last night? There were reasons why I binged (but not BINGED binged in the True Life: I'm a Binge Eater kinda way - no full sheets of cake or dozens of cheeseburgers from McD's, which, I know, would probably make this much more intriguing). I should further explore those reasons because that's what it will take to get me to stop bingeing and start addressing the "deeper issues." Yes, I know. It's because certain needs aren't being met and so I cover it up with food. Or something like that. I'll explore those reasons soon, I promise. But first I want to publicly tell you and myself that it's okay for me to "binge." Not to say that I am gonna keep doing it and that it's healthy - but that the world won't come to an end because I shoveled too much food into my mouth late last night. What if I actually had the power to bring about the apocalypse simply by chewing and swallowing food? Anyway, I'm not about to "beat myself up" for any of this. I'm not going to spend the better part of my Saturday afternoon at the gym "atoning" for my "mistake." I'm not going to fret if my pants are a little snugger. Everyone likes a little junk in the trunk, right? God. And I'm not going to say "junk in the trunk" either. I am just going to put my energy and time into more important things because, wow, guess what? There's an entire world out there and it's time I start exploring it (before I DESTROY IT with my extraordinary chewing/swallowing powers). Live outside of your head, Meg.
Above is a picture of me living outside of my head, but it's actually just a picture of the Dalai Lama with the Tibetan flag's sun radiating from his skull. Hey! Check out this weird as shit photo:
4 comments:
As an aging white hippie from Massachusetts (Well I'm not that old, 29, but I do age, and I'm not originally from Mass, but I did live in Boston for a year and a half in 2008/9, I am definitely a hippie though as I listen to jam bands and tour with them and like to experience more then shun/deny) I can say sometimes it's okay to binge to deal with the stupid shit we put ourselves through.
that picture is a screenshot from a movie i've seen but i can't remember the name of it for the life of me. it was japanese, i remember that much. sometimes i have to binge to give myself the motivation to get to the real issues. example: "wow, i ate a bag of redvines for dinner. i should get out more."
Thirdmango, I am really happy to hear that you listen to jam bands. People seems to "diss" them way too much. I dig 'em.
Cassie, I need to see that movie! And Redvines for dinner? Yes, please.
Music is my first love, my collection is extensive, but I have a lot of that due to jam bands as I got into bands like Phish, String Cheese Incident and Widespread Panic in high school (in Utah oddly enough). Before that it was just alternative rock of the mid 90s, and jam bands opened my mind to new possibilities, that music didn't have to be conventional. You could have long songs, short songs and all types of songs and still do what you love. It was very freeing, and it led me to branching out into all other avenues of music.
Often I find many people when it comes to music even if the type of music they listen to is super obscure, if they get stuck too much in it, then they'll never allow themselves to listen to anything else. An Indie Rock fan could fall into the same trap as a Weezer fan where they just believe the music they are listening to is the pinnacle of music and no other band will ever be better. Indie rock is a good example but I own a good amount of indie rock, even more then some people who consider themselves to be a part of the culture, but they would never accept me as a part of their culture cause I listen to other things.
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