I am writing this to write. To try and jump start my brain. JUMP is an incredibly odd word. Jump. juMp. JUmP. jUmP. Is that even a real word? Is there such a thing as "real words"? All of this is arbitrary. ("Jump" no longer looks strange to me. Just a regular word, nothin' special, nothin' to see or read here, folks.)
My plan for today was to get super silly stimulated and write a paper for my theory class. HA. The first part happened, but the latter is pretty much a failure. So far. It's just an incredibly difficult class for me with an insane amount of writing that makes my mind and nerves and sense of self worth shake. And the caffeine doesn't help with the shaking, surprise surprise.
Speaking of sarcastic surprises, who knew that stimulants = eating disorder for me? Huh. I never knew that. OH WAIT. Yes, I did. Sarcasm. I forgot how to use it. Now I am more confused than when I started. What do these words mean? Exactly. No one knows. Or they do know. Or it doesn't matter? Jabberwocky?
Hey, real world. You scare me.