Sunday, February 8, 2009

just a little something in my eye, just a little depression in my eye. my right eye. my left eye has stigmata. how is that possible? it's not.

I wish there was someone I could be sad to. Today was a good day. It really was. For so many reasons. But it was also a moody day. And at one point it was a cry uncontrollably on my bed for twenty minutes while feeling completely alone day. And I had no idea who to turn to. If I cried to person 1, 1 would be so stressed out and probably get really depressed. If I cried to person 2, 2 would get angry. If I cried to person 3, 3 would have to leave quickly. I also feel like in the past I have been too much of an emotional burden on certain people, so I am trying to be less... Needy? I don't know if "needy" is the right word... But maybe it's the perfect word.

So who to cry to? Maybe I just need to invest in a stuffed animal. Or find a hotline. 1-800-SHOULDER. Perhaps a rug would be the best investment. A rug, a broom, some pills, and sweep sweep smile smile all the while.

4 comments:

meg said...

is it "who" or "whom"? damn. i should know.

Jake said...

hmmmm, cry to 623-9428 - 1 doll hair per hour.

muddy banjo said...

remember (fall 2004) when i cried to you on the phone and i barely knew you? that was creepy of me, but thank you. you should cry to person 1,2, and 3 without thinking what they would think and if they don't want you to cry to them, find a new person 1,2, and 3.

errin julkunen-pedersen said...

you should just cry to me, because i cry about koala bears and hurting feelings of dropkick murphy's/flogging molly cover bands, and thinking my students think i'm fat and ugly, so, i'm pretty good at the crying thing, plus, with the trivial things that i cry over, you can always be sure that i will think your problems are very serious and deserve the utmost, heartfelt attention, because they really matter and aren't weird twists in my psychological makeup or a crazy effect of the pills that i take, and i'm pretty sympathetic, so maybe we could just turn it into a cry party. and that's a pretty good idea, because sometimes it feels really good to cry, i mean, it sucks during, but after you always feel better and why wouldn't you want to experience that with people you love instead of just all by your lonesome?